New Blogger

Having found that my cousin Cheryl is blogging. I feel I should start to do the same. Maybe this may be some sort of release for me as it seems to be for her. I am not writing in a diary and I am more comfortable with typing on a computer anyways. This past weekend was wonderful. Exhausting, but wonderful. It was Hayley's 1st birthday party and Tara, Ron, Molly, Mom, Malcolm, Ann & Jerry all came down. It was the best weekend I have had here in Halifax in a long time. The kids are so funny. Everytime I see them, I am reminded of how much I would like to have a child. I sometimes think I am wasting my time with Richard because he does not seem interested in therapy with me and he has many times told me he does not want children. Why do I stay with him though? I do love him but as they say, is love enough to stay with someone? I guess it depends on the person. Most people think we are an odd couple and I think everyone's opinion is bad of Richard because they only look skin deep. No, he is not an extremely attractive human being but his heart is what got me hook line and sinker and now I am starting to feel that I have completely overlooked my feelings in this relationship and have only focused on his. I don't know what to do. My depression keeps me from making solid decisions because fear paralizes me from doing anything. I hope I can make a decision soon because my biological clock is tick tock ticking.

Take care all.